I guess I knew it would be a tough week, for one reason or another. Being a girl definitely does not help dieting along!
I've had so much pain in my legs due to a past Achilles injury I've hardly done any walking for the past two weeks. This is making me feel really low and what do we turn to when we're low? I've stayed within points all week, but I feel like I've let myself down as I was supposed to be well under all week and I didn't do it.
This is hard, really hard and whilst it's not a competition it's only made harder by my ''only 2 stone over weight'' husband losing 2-3 pounds easily a week! I'm pleased for him, really I am because he looks great but it is so upsetting to know that I'm going to be doing this for years before I am the same weight as him.
One thing some people don't understand about WWs is that this isn't supposed to be a diet, it's supposed to be a way of slowly teaching me to eat better. I need to understand what I can and can't have if I want to maintain a healthy weight for the rest of my life. If I don't use all my points up then I'm dieting. I will get bored and I will just give up because I will feel like I'm missing out too much. I'm pretty sure this is my bad birthday week catching up with me and actually, losing a pound over the two weeks is pretty good. At least I haven't gained.
Here's hoping for a better week x
Sunday 20 March 2011
Tuesday 15 March 2011
Week six - another 1lb, but no cake
It was my birthday last Wednesday. My darling husband took me to London to see a show, then out for Dim Sum and cocktails. That evening we got back late and shared a bottle of cava in bed, whilst munching on a small box of Lindt Lindor, my favourite chocolates which were a birthday present (treat) from Neil. It's actually the first birthday I've not had at least one piece of cake so I think I deserved them.
On Thursday we snuggled under the duvet all day and watched movies, ordering an Indian take away for dinner. Saturday was a Spanish feast of nibbles, tapas, seafood paella and wine, prepared by myself, with my family, so Sunday meant a hangover lunch of fish and chips, followed by sticky toffee pudding was the only possible choice at the pub with Neil's parents.
Friday was a good day. I went to my yoga class, having not been since before Christmas and my teacher told me I looked fabulous and asked me if I'd lost loads of weight. What a boost! I think one of things that I'm struggling with on this diet is patience. I know this is by far the best and most sensible way to lose weight but I just want to be thin again, yesterday!
So when weigh day came on Sunday morning I decided there was no way I was going to make myself miserable, I would just have a super good week this week. On Monday though the curiosity got the better of me and I stripped off and hopped on the scales, breathing in and holding my breath.
Well I couldn't believe it. Despite all of those treats I still lost 1lb! I was so pleased it's made me even more determined to just keep going. I'm pretty sure my next weigh in will show the true effects so if I can have a really tight week this week (so far so good as haven't gone into my weekly allowance and have had between 5 and 9 points per day left) I should be able to cheat the system, so to speak.
More recipes to come, so watch this space and stay skinny.
x
On Thursday we snuggled under the duvet all day and watched movies, ordering an Indian take away for dinner. Saturday was a Spanish feast of nibbles, tapas, seafood paella and wine, prepared by myself, with my family, so Sunday meant a hangover lunch of fish and chips, followed by sticky toffee pudding was the only possible choice at the pub with Neil's parents.
Friday was a good day. I went to my yoga class, having not been since before Christmas and my teacher told me I looked fabulous and asked me if I'd lost loads of weight. What a boost! I think one of things that I'm struggling with on this diet is patience. I know this is by far the best and most sensible way to lose weight but I just want to be thin again, yesterday!
So when weigh day came on Sunday morning I decided there was no way I was going to make myself miserable, I would just have a super good week this week. On Monday though the curiosity got the better of me and I stripped off and hopped on the scales, breathing in and holding my breath.
Well I couldn't believe it. Despite all of those treats I still lost 1lb! I was so pleased it's made me even more determined to just keep going. I'm pretty sure my next weigh in will show the true effects so if I can have a really tight week this week (so far so good as haven't gone into my weekly allowance and have had between 5 and 9 points per day left) I should be able to cheat the system, so to speak.
More recipes to come, so watch this space and stay skinny.
x
Saturday 5 March 2011
Whooo hooo, 2lbs down
Seems I spoke too soon. Week five = -2lbs! Very pleased, especially considering how I've felt all week. So that makes 9lbs loss in 5 weeks. Not bad!
I came across an old spreadsheet that we created in October 2008 to try and help us lose weight and was shocked to see that I was 17st10lbs then, so I've got just under a stone to lose to even get back to that weight. That was just after our wedding day and whilst I felt absolutely beautiful that day, there are some pictures I look at that make me feel so sad wondering why I didn't try to lose some weight before my big day. This one in particular I regret as it's a wonderful picture and I just look gigantic in it.
It's OK though, this is my motivating factor. I don't want to look back on pictures like this and feel sad, I want to work hard over the next few years and look back and feel proud of who I am and what I made myself become. The last few weeks have shown me that this is not going to be quick, it's not going to be easy and I will have blips but eventually the hard work will pay off and the end result will be something like this again -
It's OK though, this is my motivating factor. I don't want to look back on pictures like this and feel sad, I want to work hard over the next few years and look back and feel proud of who I am and what I made myself become. The last few weeks have shown me that this is not going to be quick, it's not going to be easy and I will have blips but eventually the hard work will pay off and the end result will be something like this again -
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| August 2006, weight approx 13 stone |
Week four
I've not been on for a while. Partly because I've been wallowing in self pity and partly because I'm struggling. I lost 1lb last week, so am back to where I was before the 1lb gain, but I'm no further down in two weeks. I guess the first two weeks were always going to be a big loss because it's a change to the system and I'm still on track for 2lbs, a week I just really want to get to the first stone. It's really hard to love yourself once your mind is set on losing weight. Instead of seeing that swollen hamster I had convinced myself I loved, wobbles and all, I now just see a disgusting fat person who really needs to lose a stone or 6!
Weigh day tomorrow so we'll see how this past week went. I'm not hopeful though as am feeling very chubby, sluggish and bloated. This is possibly due to being in the middle of the worst period ever in terms of pain etc. It's even woken me in the night it's been so bad. I can't even get into my jeans comfortably at the moment.I suffer from endometriosis so it's not unusual that I get hit with bad ones once a month, I just need to try and work out how to keep losing weekly despite this.
We've got no internet right now (slooooooooowwwww liiiike a snaaaiiiiiil) so I've no idea if I'm going to even be able to post this. It also means that I can't point track which is really frustrating as means I'm having to eat really low just in case.
Tonight's supper is going to be movie snacks, a perfect solution for snuggling on the sofa and nibbling, without the guilt.
Movie Snacks - serves two, easily (11 WW pro points per person)
For the salsa -
One large red onion, diced very small
6 tomatoes (get the good stuff, never scrimp on tomatoes), diced very small
Half a jar of jalapenos, chopped into small chunks
Big handful of fresh coriander, roughly chopped
Generous pinch of flaked sea salt
Juice of half a lime
Combine all the ingredients into a bowl, mixing thoroughly.
For the guacamole -
2 large hass avocados, chunked and roughly mashed with a fork
1 tsp chilli powder
3 tsp paprika
2 tsp ground cumin
1 tsp onion powder
1 tsp garlic powder
1/2 tsp cayenne pepper
Splash of tabasco (red)
Combine all the ingredients into a bowl, mixing thoroughly.
Serve above dips with several celery sticks, a small bowl of baby plum tomatoes, some carrot sticks and 50g tortilla chips per person.
Weigh day tomorrow so we'll see how this past week went. I'm not hopeful though as am feeling very chubby, sluggish and bloated. This is possibly due to being in the middle of the worst period ever in terms of pain etc. It's even woken me in the night it's been so bad. I can't even get into my jeans comfortably at the moment.I suffer from endometriosis so it's not unusual that I get hit with bad ones once a month, I just need to try and work out how to keep losing weekly despite this.
We've got no internet right now (slooooooooowwwww liiiike a snaaaiiiiiil) so I've no idea if I'm going to even be able to post this. It also means that I can't point track which is really frustrating as means I'm having to eat really low just in case.
Tonight's supper is going to be movie snacks, a perfect solution for snuggling on the sofa and nibbling, without the guilt.
Movie Snacks - serves two, easily (11 WW pro points per person)
For the salsa -
One large red onion, diced very small
6 tomatoes (get the good stuff, never scrimp on tomatoes), diced very small
Half a jar of jalapenos, chopped into small chunks
Big handful of fresh coriander, roughly chopped
Generous pinch of flaked sea salt
Juice of half a lime
Combine all the ingredients into a bowl, mixing thoroughly.
For the guacamole -
2 large hass avocados, chunked and roughly mashed with a fork
1 tsp chilli powder
3 tsp paprika
2 tsp ground cumin
1 tsp onion powder
1 tsp garlic powder
1/2 tsp cayenne pepper
Splash of tabasco (red)
Combine all the ingredients into a bowl, mixing thoroughly.
Serve above dips with several celery sticks, a small bowl of baby plum tomatoes, some carrot sticks and 50g tortilla chips per person.
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