Eugh, I've gained

Weigh day yesterday and I've gained 1 lb. It's small in the grand scheme of things but the emotions I felt when I found out were all over the place:

1. Does this mean it's not working after all?
2. Is this a slippery slope back to where I was?
3. Did I eat too much, despite being in my points?
4. Did I do something wrong/mis-calculate?

I was really upset but I have no choice so I just decided to up my game. I'll have a low week and go ten below my points every day and exercise more. I'll also not have bread as even though I counted it, I had a lot of bread last week. Apparently eating up to your points everyday makes no difference at all, it just means the diet is more do-able but I just need to have a tough week to get back on track otherwise this is going to take forever!

I also went and bought some fancy electric scales to make sure I am measuring everything 100%. I tested them against my old ones and I was 25g out on the last thing I measured so hopefully this will make a difference. 

Also consoling self with the fact that I've still lost an average of 2lbs a week, which was my target anyway.

Have fun and stay skinny (I'm trying!!)

Recipe for my homemade veggie lasagne (11 points)

For the filling -
2tbs olive oil
1 medium red onion
2 cloves garlic, crushed
1 portion of butternut squash, diced
1courgette, diced
4 mushrooms, sliced
1 red pepper, diced
300g Quorn veggie mince
1 tin of chopped tomatoes
1tsp vegan bouillon
Several dashes of Worcestershire sauce
Half a large bag of spinach
4 lasagne sheets (I use Waitrose spinach ones as they're larger so you use less ;)
200g reduced fat cheddar, grated

For the cheese sauce -
1/2 pint skimmed milk
1 sachet of Coleman's cheese sauce (not the nicest but better for you than homemade cheese sauce or jar!)

Method - 

1. Heat up 1tbs olive oil in a wok (I find this is the best pan to use but any large pan will do). Turn the heat down to medium and fry the onions, adding the garlic once they start to soften. 
2. Add the butternut squash and fry for a few minutes. Then add the courgette, mushrooms and pepper. 
3. Fry, stirring lots. If you need to add abit more olive oil to keep it all going then do, but remember it's 4 points per tablespoon.
4. After about 5 minutes add the mince, tinned tomatoes, Worcestshire sauce and bouillon. Stir it well. 
5. Place the spinach on top and stir it in, carefully.
6. Leave the sauce to simmer away while you make the cheese sauce, following the instructions on the packet. 
7. Place 4 large spoonfuls of the filling into an oven proof lasagne dish, then place two of the lasagne sheets on top. 
8. Spoon over the rest of the mixture and place the last two lasagne sheets on top of it. 
9. Pour over the cheese sauce, covering the surface and then sprinkle the cheese on top, evenly. 
10. Cook in the oven at about 180C for about 20 minutes, until the top is bubbling and golden and the lasagne sheets have softened.
11. Serve a 1/4 with a side salad with some balsamic vinegar (free points!) and a glass of red wine or 3 (3 points per glass so use some of your weekly allowance if you like).

Falling in love with myself all over again

OK, so it sounds modest but I can't stop looking at myself in the mirror. I mean, I'm still a big fat person, yet I feel fantastic. My clothes are looser (I'm not that far off new jeans), I feel tighter and trimmer and everyone is commenting on the difference already!

I just want to keep going and going until I get there. I'm really scared about reaching a plateau but this was never going to be easy!

Thanks to everyone who has sponsored me so far, it's incredibly motivating knowing that I'm not only doing this for myself, but to help animals in need.

Lots of love and stay skinny xx

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In the view of motivation and doing all I can for a cause that means everything to me I've created this page. I hope you can support me and the dogs at the Blue Cross, Burford.

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Thank you xx

Time to say goodbye.....

It's been a long time coming but I'm finally ready to go on a diet. Years have been wasted and it's time for a change. I'm sick of looking like a swollen hamster and not being able to buy clothes from the shops I like to shop in. My ''now'' picture makes me want to cry!

So I joined weight watchers online two weeks ago and am actually finding it OK. I'm calculating everything I eat and building recipes into my online tracker that count every ingredient for me, so I know exactly what I can and can't eat.

At first, calculating everything was really off putting and time consuming, but now I'm into the swing of it all it's easy and actually really fun. I can eat all the food I enjoy, just with better control and smaller portion sizes. I can also have booze and treats by saving up my weekly allowance points.

I've lost 7lbs in the first two weeks and am really pleased. I'm on a mission to get skinny and I won't get off the bus until I am!

Have fun and stay skinny xx