Week four

I've not been on for a while. Partly because I've been wallowing in self pity and partly because I'm struggling. I lost 1lb last week, so am back to where I was before the 1lb gain, but I'm no further down in two weeks. I guess the first two weeks were always going to be a big loss because it's a change to the system and I'm still on track for 2lbs, a week I just really want to get to the first stone. It's really hard to love yourself once your mind is set on losing weight. Instead of seeing that swollen hamster I had convinced myself I loved, wobbles and all, I now just see a disgusting fat person who really needs to lose a stone or 6!

Weigh day tomorrow so we'll see how this past week went. I'm not hopeful though as am feeling very chubby, sluggish and bloated. This is possibly due to being in the middle of the worst period ever in terms of pain etc. It's even woken me in the night it's been so bad. I can't even get into my jeans comfortably at the moment.I suffer from endometriosis so it's not unusual that I get hit with bad ones once a month, I just need to try and work out how to keep losing weekly despite this.

We've got no internet right now (slooooooooowwwww liiiike a snaaaiiiiiil) so I've no idea if I'm going to even be able to post this. It also means that I can't point track which is really frustrating as means I'm having to eat really low just in case.

Tonight's supper is going to be movie snacks, a perfect solution for snuggling on the sofa and nibbling, without the guilt.

Movie Snacks - serves two, easily (11 WW pro points per person)

For the salsa -
One large red onion, diced very small
6 tomatoes (get the good stuff, never scrimp on tomatoes), diced very small
Half a jar of jalapenos, chopped into small chunks
Big handful of fresh coriander, roughly chopped
Generous pinch of flaked sea salt
Juice of half a lime

Combine all the ingredients into a bowl, mixing thoroughly.




For the guacamole -
2 large hass avocados, chunked and roughly mashed with a fork
1 tsp chilli powder
3 tsp paprika
2 tsp ground cumin
1 tsp onion powder
1 tsp garlic powder
1/2 tsp cayenne pepper
Splash of tabasco (red)

Combine all the ingredients into a bowl, mixing thoroughly.

Serve above dips with several celery sticks, a small bowl of baby plum tomatoes, some carrot sticks and 50g tortilla chips per person.